I announced that I was down at the T&C the other night to see Quentin Reddy play, but it was a bit too late for peo­ple to come down..  Thanks to those of you who tried though!

Quentin and the guys played a few great sets before I had to leave (an early morn­ing was loom­ing) but I man­aged to grab a few images while I was there.

Thought I’d share them with you all here as I still don’t have the drom­e­dary com­pany blog up and run­ning (too busy with other projects!).

 

I came across this BBC arti­cle today and it strikes me as yet another indi­ca­tion of the prob­lems with school sys­tems in the west­ern world..   Here a kid finally takes inter­est in pol­i­tics and the state of a coun­try; he’s engaged, informed and holds an opin­ion about how the future of the UK should look…    The trou­ble? He’s 14, sev­eral years away from vot­ing age.   What makes me a bit crazy is that his teacher rat­ted him out rather than using the sit­u­a­tion as a pure learn­ing oppor­tu­nity and hav­ing the kid in ques­tion fess up prop­erly.  What’s the les­son we learned here?  In the ‘real world’ it’s okay to be a tattle-tale.

Right..

I say, good on ya Alfie. I’ll buy you a beer when you’re 18 and it won’t get you in any more trouble..

 

I spent the day chas­ing around Cal­gary, mak­ing busy in the blow­ing snow (yes, snow at the end of April). After two day long appoint­ments came and went, and I returned home from a third, impromptu pho­tog­ra­phy SlushySnowwork­shop I real­ized that I’d an evening com­mit­ment for a birth­day cel­e­bra­tion.  Mind still buzzing from the day, I hopped into the car and headed downtown.

By the time I reached my des­ti­na­tion, giant slushy flakes of snow were blow­ing side­ways down the alley­way and I hud­dled deep in to my jacket try­ing to iso­late myself from the bit­ing wind as much as pos­si­ble.. As I rounded the final cor­ner, I noticed a man hud­dled in a dry cor­ner under an over­hang and made the delib­er­ate choice to walk past him with enough dis­tance between us to deter any con­ver­sa­tion about spare change.  I noted my choice and promptly set it to the back of my mind as my pri­or­ity shifted to get­ting out of the sloppy wet­ness rain­ing from the sky.

After three hours of won­der­ful con­ver­sa­tion a few drinks, a shared plate of pou­tine, and a piece of choco­late cake that I didn’t need but really wanted, we all parted ways and I returned to my car past the same hud­dled man who by this time was lay­ing down curled up to stave off the near freez­ing temperatures.

For the first time in years I found myself not just walk­ing by but actu­ally putting myself in to his sit­u­a­tion. Not out of guilt or any oblig­a­tion but because it felt like the right thing to do..  I felt com­pletely pan­icked by the prospect of spend­ing the night out there uncov­ered and unpro­tected and as I walked back to the car I pon­dered my options and finally set­tled on dig­ging out a fleece blan­ket that I’d been using to cover my equip­ment when it sits in the back of the car..

I felt a range of emo­tions sweep through me and was sur­prised by how many related to my attach­ment to a blan­ket.  It was expen­sive, it was mostly serv­ing a pur­pose, what was I going to replace it with? Then I con­tem­plated whether one of the two emer­gency sleep­ing bags in the back would have been a bet­ter option.  They were about the same price, but might have been bet­ter options. But then I need them for an upcom­ing camp­ing trip. But do I need both?

As I arrived home I wan­dered through the empty house and con­tem­plated why I wouldn’t have just offered this guy a place to sleep that was warm and dry.  I have plenty of  space, and extra bed and plenty of hot water.   The obvi­ous answer is rooted in safety, my own per­sonal, and the secu­rity of my stuff,  elec­tron­ics, cam­eras, per­sonal effects etc..  I’ve pon­dered this evening, the lim­i­ta­tions of stuff and whether my deci­sion would have been dif­fer­ent had I noth­ing worth steal­ing kept in the house.  That led me to won­der­ing why I would imme­di­ately con­sider some­one home­less a threat.

My only con­clu­sion at this point is that this whole sce­nario is messed up. I need to reeval­u­ate my own val­ues and con­sider what is really most impor­tant. I’m near cer­tain right now that the ‘stuff’ will not win out in the reconciliation.

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This may quite pos­si­bly turn in to a very long post. I apol­o­gize in advance.

I’ve been absent.

Not just from this site, but from life in gen­eral. I’ve been hold­ing on to some ridicu­lous notion that I’ve been busy with this or that, but the pure truth of the mat­ter is that I just switched off.

It’s not entirely clear to me why or when exactly this hap­pened, but I’m pretty darn sure that my time in the field didn’t help.  I also think it wasn’t the cause though I may have laid blame there pre­vi­ously.  Look­ing back fur­ther, it’s really dif­fi­cult to iden­tify the last time I felt really alive.

This is a problem.

Switch­ing off has pro­vided me with the capa­bil­ity to han­dle a num­ber of small cat­a­stro­phes and major life-events with ease.  It has meant that I can eas­ily rely on the illu­sion of sim­ple prag­ma­tism to explain how eas­ily I deal with strife (with­out com­pletely los­ing my nut).

I’ve deceived myself and in the process I’ve likely deceived oth­ers.  If I take an hon­est look at the issue it becomes clear that I’ve com­pletely lost any sense of car­ing.  Car­ing for myself, car­ing for oth­ers, the envi­ron­ment and even the world at large.

This con­flicts with my morals and my dreams.

Since return­ing to Canada, I’ve become increas­ingly dis­con­nected from the beliefs, behav­iours and paths of the peo­ple around me. Some­thing is wrong with the way we live our lives (both here in ‘the west’ & else­where) and I can’t quan­tify it, and it often feels as if nobody else really gets that. Yet, I con­tinue to live the life here as if noth­ing has changed.

This cog­ni­tive dis­so­nance is no longer just uncom­fort­able, it’s sys­temic and par­a­lytic in my own life. I have let it stop me from car­ing, and I have always under­stood that we as peo­ple are capa­ble of great things, but rarely do I see more than doom, destruc­tion and death being broad­cast on a daily basis.

Going it alone.

I’ve done a lot of things solo in my life, I’ve trav­eled, bought a house, pho­tographed, run, biked, hiked, con­soled a dying friend, and stood up for an underdog.

I under­stand the need to be capa­ble of work­ing on my own, enter­tain­ing myself, and being self suf­fi­cient. In fact I have vehe­mently pur­sued indi­vid­ual goals in an attempt to prove (to myself?? oth­ers??) that I am self suf­fi­cient. I’ve turned away or ignored oppor­tu­ni­ties for assis­tance and in the process have learned what an incred­i­ble strain it is to be an indi­vid­ual in this world.

Empa­thy.

Some­thing my cousin has sug­gested in a yelling, spit­ting rage that I do not posses. This in the wake of the death of my Uncle Dale, a man I’ve learned an incred­i­ble amount from over the past thirty years and who has been the only father I’ve ever really known.

The prob­lem really hasn’t been not car­ing enough, but rather car­ing too much and about too many things. I’m not just whelmed, I’m überwhelmed. Fig­ur­ing out what mat­ters again is a top pri­or­ity and in order to do that I need to clean house a bit.

Tak­ing stock.

Over the next sev­eral weeks, I’ll be tak­ing stock and hav­ing a seri­ous look at what really mat­ters to me and what I want to do about it. There will be a lit­eral and a fig­u­ra­tive clear­ing of house in the attempt to sim­plify what has become an unrea­son­ably com­pli­cated life.

This is a smat­ter­ing of the thoughts run­ning through my head at the moment.  In the past CAVOK has been about clear­ing my mind and keep­ing my word.   It has been inex­plic­a­bly dif­fi­cult to begin to doc­u­ment the hap­pen­ings of the last few years and so I shall endeavor to doc­u­ment from this point for­ward with the caveat that I may at some time visit the past..

For those of you who still check in here once in a while, and who’ve made it this far through the post, thank you for tak­ing the time to care..

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So the shiny new Apple iPad has been released.  Sorta.

iPad Disclaimer

This mes­sage appears at the tail end of a video trailer from Apple describ­ing the won­ders of their new prod­uct and in an rather anti­cli­mac­tic close sug­gests that FCC approval for the device isn’t quite in place yet.  As a cus­tomer (or poten­tial cus­tomer) this felt like a bit of a buzz kill, right after a drink­ing the big-gulp sized cup of Apple hype.  From a busi­ness per­spec­tive how­ever, it makes com­plete sense. I mean, really, is there any­one out there that believes they won’t get the approval?  Some­times it’s bet­ter to get the momen­tum started and worry about the fin­ish­ing details later.

By odd coin­ci­dence, as the announce­ment came through this morn­ing, I was watch­ing this video pre­sen­ta­tion by Seth Godin on the mer­its of ship­ping, get­ting your prod­uct to mar­ket, and fast.  His com­men­tary on pro­duc­tiv­ity revolves around hash­ing out details in the begin­ning of your prod­uct devel­op­ment and then reject­ing the impulses of what he calls “the lizard brain”, the lit­tle voice in our heads that resists suc­cess in the long term.

In essence, he’s describ­ing the con­cept fol­lowed by count­less suc­cess­ful com­pa­nies and entre­pre­neurs which is, ship, then bug fix. Per­fec­tion it seems, is a long lost con­cept.   As a com­pany this makes you more mar­ketable (not to men­tion sol­vent) but is it good for clients to receive an imper­fect prod­uct for their hard earned dol­lars?  Or do they even care?  What do you think?

 

Peo­ple use their com­puter desk­top in count­less dif­fer­ent ways.  My uncle uses his to store short­cuts to all of the appli­ca­tions that he uses reg­u­larly.  Sev­eral of my friends pre­fer to keep theirs entirely bar­ren, pre­fer­ring instead to work out of fold­ers buried some­where deep in the com­puter.  I had a man­ager once that insisted all of the files and fold­ers on my com­puter should be arranged alphabetically..

Per­son­ally, I’ve always treated the desk­top as a work area and tend to group files con­tex­tu­ally or by project. Hav­ing groups of files directly in view helps me keep tabs on what I’m try­ing to accom­plish and keep­ing them grouped log­i­cally sig­nif­i­cantly sim­pli­fies the task of find­ing them when you need them.

The Achilles heel of this sys­tem though is when things get busy and I stop orga­niz­ing my files.. This is when I know I’ve taken on too many projects. If you expe­ri­ence the same thing, this arti­cle is for you..

The last sev­eral days have been com­plete and utter bed­lam for me, and this evening I real­ized why.   Upon a quick review of my desk­top I found this unmit­i­gated dis­as­ter; full of files and snip­pets of par­tially com­pleted and stalled projects. In a word, unmanageable.

disorganized desktop

So, what to do about this?

The obvi­ous answer is, fin­ish a few projects. But what if this isn’t possible?

  1. Start by delet­ing any unnec­es­sary files
  2. File any­thing that you don’t need imme­di­ate access to in your ‘doc­u­ments’ folder
  3. Orga­nize the remain­ing files in to log­i­cal groups.   This will be dif­fer­ent for every per­son, do what works best for you whether it be alpha­bet­i­cal, chrono­log­i­cal or by color of icon.
  4. On occa­sion, if I know I’ve got a few ongo­ing projects that need to be orga­nized I’ll take one addi­tional step that helps keep me in check.

  5. Cre­ate a desk­top back­ground in an image edit­ing pro­gram like PC Paint or Adobe Pho­to­shop (or Pixlr)  with dividers between which you’ll store your work­ing files and fold­ers.  I use smaller boxes to limit the num­ber of files I can store for a par­tic­u­lar project (thus lim­it­ing the amount of unfin­ished work I will allow for each).  Label each box to enforce a place for every­thing and don’t for­get to leave your­self a sand­box where you can place files through­out the day while you’re deal­ing with them..  I try to ensure that my sand­box is empty at the end of the day to make my life eas­ier the next morning!

A few addi­tional notes:

  • To find the size of your desktop
    • In Win­dows: right-click the desk­top and choose prop­er­ties and click the set­tings tab to see the screen resolution
    • On a Mac: Open the dis­plays pref­er­ences panel and click the dis­play tab to find the res­o­lu­tion for your cur­rent monitor
  • Con­sider cre­at­ing mul­ti­ple desk­top arrange­ments for dif­fer­ent groups of tasks or addi­tional screens

I’d love to hear your thoughts!   How do you orga­nize your desk­top, and does this sys­tem work for you?

 

Last fall, after a late frost ruined all of the fruit on two apple trees in my back yard, I made the deci­sion to leave it all as fod­der for the birds this win­ter.   Much to my cha­grin, the squir­rels are the only crea­tures that have been mak­ing use of the offer­ing and mostly that’s been hap­pen­ing over the last month or so.  We haven’t had a par­tic­u­larly hard win­ter, but I sus­pect that the more palat­able win­ter food has been con­sumed and now these lit­tle ver­min are hav­ing to settle..

I’ll be clear that these lit­tle crea­tures are ver­min, and a nui­sance, they’ve chewed through more than one impor­tant bit of the house, and make a habit of skit­ter­ing along the stucco out­side my bed­room at ungodly hours of the morn­ing. I yell at them, shake my fists, and even pound on the walls  on occa­sion, but I must admit it’s dif­fi­cult to NOT enjoy watch­ing them scam­per through the snow and scurry up the trees to pick fruit nearly the same size as their lit­tle carcasses.

I caught this lit­tle guy the other day camped out on a sunny win­dow sill and quite enjoy­ing his meal (until I came along that is..)

 

I still have no idea where the impulse came from, but I dug up a copy of Baz Luhurmann’s 1999 release Everybody’s Free (To Wear Sun­screen) this morn­ing.  As I lis­tened with a decade of addi­tional expe­ri­ence under my belt, I’ve real­ized how sim­ple wis­dom can be, and how we tend to ignore that of those who are fur­ther down the path then ourselves.

As I progress through Lead­er­ship Cal­gary, the focus shifts fre­quently back to build­ing wis­dom in to our ways of think­ing and being. At times the prospect (and in fact the process of get­ting there) seems immea­sur­ably daunt­ing.  After list­ing to this record­ing for the first time in ten years  though, I real­ize that wis­dom really can be sim­ple.. to those that posses it.  It’s the getting-there that’s difficult.

Baz Lehur­mann: Everybody’s Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Ladies and Gen­tle­men of the class of ’99, wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sun­screen would be
it. The long term ben­e­fits of sun­screen have been proved by
sci­en­tists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reli­able
than my own mean­der­ing experience…

I will dis­pense this advice now.

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I had an inter­est­ing encounter this after­noon when I met the Postie out in front of the house..  I intro­duced myself and as we chat­ted, he com­mented about some stock he’d pur­chased in a com­pany that I haven’t worked for in over a year.  For the first time I caught a glimpse of a com­pletely dif­fer­ent per­spec­tive, a world where the only con­nec­tion to your client is through the outer mark­ings on an enve­lope.  When I real­ized this, I even felt a bit silly for offer­ing my first name.  I’m the only one who gets mail at this address after all, and why wouldn’t I be me?

When I worked at tech­ni­cal sup­port sev­eral years ago, I knew clients by their user­name alone (save a few regular-callers), and often I would recall a plethora of infor­ma­tion about the spe­cific con­fig­u­ra­tion of their com­puter, pre­vi­ous prob­lems and addi­tional email addresses with­out much thought.  Sev­eral of the reg­u­lar clients I could still list off by user­name, but any fur­ther details of their lives are for­ever lost in the Telco archives..

This really high­lights to me what a huge impact our envi­ron­ment can have on our ori­ent­ing sto­ries, our way of see­ing the world. I’m curi­ous now, has any­one else had this expe­ri­ence, or can you relate to the tech-support or postman’s side of the equation?

 

In the begin­ning of Sep­tem­ber I posted a note about the youth photo ini­tia­tive that I’ll be run­ning in con­junc­tion with the Cal­gary board of edu­ca­tion and the Boys and Girls Club of Calgary..

The first few weeks have gone very well, and we’ve man­aged to select approx­i­mately ten stu­dents to com­plete the for-credit pro­gram. Dur­ing the last class we dis­cussed some of the cur­rent events that stu­dents felt strongly about, and in the end the group agreed to focus on the com­mu­nity of Bow­ness here in Cal­gary, which is an incred­i­bly diverse and (dare I say) unique com­mu­nity. Given said diver­sity, this will prove to be an inter­est­ing project as time goes on!

With the help of Jim at The Cam­era Store, we sent requests to sev­eral cam­era man­u­fac­tur­ers to spon­sor the pro­gram with equip­ment.   Unfor­tu­nately the requests were not met favor­ably and as a result the school will have to pur­chase the cam­eras out­right.  I’d really like to give a plug to The Cam­era Store and par­tic­u­larly Jim for being so sup­port­ive of Boys and Girls Club pro­grams. They’ve helped on a few projects already and their com­mit­ment to help­ing the com­mu­nity should not go unnoticed!

I’ve sent the stu­dents out with the fol­low­ing home­work and next week (if all goes accord­ing to plan) we should begin to actu­ally work with cameras..

  • (Cur­rent Events) Bring in 2 arti­cles (or pieces of writing)
    • Be pre­pared to talk about what they mean to you.
  • (Observation)Find two out­side objects and visit them on at least four occa­sions in one day: Morn­ing, Mid-Day, Evening (sun­set), Night
  • Record your observations
    • Shad­ows
    • Colours
    • Tex­ture
    • Con­trast

Now I’ll have to get myself out to do some home­work too; I must admit, it’s kinda fun to be back in school! :)